only so far
(I thought of transformation
old patterns discarded
new honesty and clarity
stating need and desire)
I organised what you asked for
what you wanted, from another
as a gift
only realising too late
that you in your own
indirect
allusive
way
crafted from memories
distant
shared
were asking for that gift
from
with
me
and if I'd not hidden
hidden from my still dragging
tendrils of fear
of expectation
of rejection
(no, I really haven't come that far)
we could still share
this
that we both still wish for
12th March 2025